It's been almost a year

Around the same time last year, I begin to do massage… It’s been near a year now that I have been doing massage. I have good and bad experiences, but the bad experiences were not bad enough to make me say good bye forever to my massage activities. I didn’t blog here for a long time and I didn’t do massage for a long time too.

I am currently working at 2 jobs, everything is going fine and I am not that in need of money like I was in the days. But I had been thinking about doing massages again, during the weekend, and I might begin next weekend. I am thrill to see how things will work out. Now that the weather is better now, it will be easier for me to go outside and so on. Extra cash will be more than nice for the summer.

I went shopping today and I didn’t shop that much, I only buy 2 belts in sale because I lost weight a bit and when I sit, my coworkers can see my underwear. So to make it stop, I buy 2 belts, 2 very nice belts actually. I saw those very lovely long skirts at Gap, but they are not cheap. I was also looking at summer dresses, but they were not cheap either.

I just hope to be lucky enough to fine guys who will only want regular massage and nothing else. I still have my massage oil.

No more snow

I didn't blog here for a long time. One reason for it was that I didn't do any massages since, I think, January. I just did one last week, but it was about all. I had to registered on CL in order to post new adds. I did, I had a few responses, but I didn't reply to no ones. I was just not in the mood.

But since Spring seem to be here, it's still cold, but at least, there's no more snow. I hate snow and winter time.

I didn't purchase a tv yet, so I might continue my massage activities.

And a good news is I loose weight a bit, I fit in a 12 seize jeans now. But it's an Old Navy and Gap jeans, I don't know if theirs size are larger there. I was in need of some clothes and I didn't buy some in quite a while. I am kind of happy sometimes to have that massage thing to rely too. I was gived a 40$ (for massages of course) and it pay off a meal and a pair of Gaps jean.

Doing non-sexual massages is just the cuttest, sweatest little idea I never came with to make money.

And I hope it will just continue for years to come.

Getting back to business

I have so much fun writing my blog and with that massage thing. Since I except to spend a little bit of money of the 22 (it's my Linkin Park concert at the Bell Centre), I am getting back to business, back to CL and my little posts for "MASSAGE".

I had an email from a guy about my age that I went to give a massage in Westmount a while ago. I previously post about it. The same guy reply saying if I could come to his place and give him a massage, and he wanted to give me one.....

I don't feel comfortable receiving a massage because it's just make me feel like I want to F... lol

I don't know if guys feel the same way when I massage them, but to tell the true, I won't ever make a guy come at my place and give me a massage because.... IT'S WAY TOO MUCH EXCITED...............................................................................................................................................

On my new blog title...

My previous blog title was "Diary of a massage girl in Montreal" or something like that, which I modify a few days ago for "Confessions of a massage girl" which is a lot sexier. And it's way too much funny coming from me .

That is because I am not the type that dress sexy, with high heels (I don't have any) and with make up on to go do my massages. Like the blog title does no match the real life. I cannot say I am really a massage girl (most of the time) lol

It could be the reason why I don't have any regular clients. But I don't want any either. Is there any prostitutes out there who have regular clients?

And what's the different anyway between me and a prostitute?

lol....

I never get money from having sex with a guy, that's the major difference between me and a prostitute.

But than, how come there's a bunch of guys out there willing to give me 40$ for one hour massage? Maybe it's something they all want to try before getting married and having little kids. It's kind of innocent from me, thinking that way.

From kind of red hair massage girl to brunette...

I just dye my hair brown yesterday and it's really pretty. I had to do somethings with those hair. I had a few colors at home, one like my old hair color, one more light red hair kind of, and the other brown.... So for know on, when someone ask for a description, I will write...... long brown hair lol. And that's only for the hair part lol.

I had a fun story to tell about my work, one girl massage the shoulders of a guy just for fun. The guy look at me and told me that if I when to give him a massage, he will come next to my seat right away... I was going to say, yeah, but it's not free coming from me..... it's 40$ per hour. Oh lol!

And I was laughing all the time and no one really understand the real reason, probably thinking I was laughing at the situation more than something else....

I never told no one about my massage activities, even if I believe I don't do nothing wrong, even close friends. Not that I believe that I do something wrong because everytime, I try to make it clear about what I do, the service offer, which most of the time is massage only (lol) and the rate, etc.........

But they won't be probably able to understand so I prefer to keep everything for myself and be quiet about it. It's quite exciting that I can make that much money by offering massages, most of the time non-sexual lol. It's help me to cover extra, like that New Year Eve expenses and other.

I am going to a Linkin Park concert this next February 22 and I would like to be able to pay that from my massages. I didn't post nothing yet, but I will probably shortly. I only did one massage in January and in February, so far, nothing, because I am ok now regarding money and I don't need extra cash, since I am doing kind of ok at the job that I currently have.

Loosing business because of a cold

I have been sicked those last couple of days. I had before post one of my usual ads to do massage, I had a couple of responses, but I haven't been able to responses, I have been too sick. I miss I believe 3 to 4 massages session that could had work out because I am sick. And I currenly need the money to pay a Linkin Park concert on February 22. I am so tired of winter time. I can wait for Spring time to come.

I haven't been sicked this winter at all, but now that I would need massage $$$, I am currently to sick and my medication stone me. lol

I took gravol as sleeping pill, I couldn't sleep. This is the hardest I will go, I done want to end like the so kind and lovely Anna Nicole Smith. My favorite playmate.

As for massage, I did one massage session during the month of January, and it was all...... lol

I am tired and have a cold. I have nothing much to say.....................

I hope to get back in business soon. Since it's the only "job" where I can get pay 40$ per hour. Hilarious. But I prefer not to think to much about the whole thing.

I hope I will get better soon. Cold medicine had a strange effect on me.

Nothing much going on

I just post a new ad in CL to provide massage. I was surfing the Web and I was reading pretty scary stuff about Craigslist. One woman actually got kill after she responses to an ad that was post in CL. She had responses to an ad post for a nanny job, get she get kill by the man who had post the ad. Maybe the opposite could happen, someone could response to one of my massage ad and that, I could get rape or kill.......

I think of that possibility before, but I have to say I prefer not to thing about those things. I don't really have to worry right now because I didn't get any response yet. And I never been really too anxious about that.

I had today and tomorrow off, only 2 days for massage and I hope I won't get nothing because it's cold outside. But at the same time, an extra 40$ will be welcome because I got a pal at work who want me to go at a Linkin Park concert at the Bell Centre this February 22. She already had the extra ticket. She was supposed to go with a friend of her, but she didn't had received any news from her, so I am taking the place, for 40$. But there will be of course other expenses related, I can easily ad an extra 40$. I am not the biggest Linkin Park fan, but I like them. I kind of know their songs.

It might be my second week wihout giving any massage and it's better that way

I have been doing extra hours at work, so I don't have too much time for massages. So it will be a second week at a row without doing nothing and I prefer it that way... I prefer to do extra hours at my job rather than doing extra for extra money................ lol

I prefer it that way, I am more relax and sine it been cold those last days, I prefer to stay at home or be at my job, rather than running everywhere for massages.

I recently received an email from a massage spa, they answer one of my CL ad. In the email, they told me that there were looking for massage girl, and give me their Web site. And of course, girl were dress sexy, sometime with no clothes on, etc...... And on the Web site, it was writing that for extra, see with your hotess......

Nevermind, I don't went to become a massage girl working at a spa and I don't want to do extra. I wonder if those girls actually have sex with their clients. I prefer not to know and not to go there. The spa is located on Papineau and I hate Papineau, for a reason or another. I never go there.

Those long winter night are now quiet and colder than ever, and I still don't have a TV and couch at my place.

No massage activities for this week so far

My last massage was last week, and so far, I didn't do any massages session. I have been quite busy at my regular job, since I am able to do some extra hours. I did 11 hours today at the job and I am quite tired now. I am off for the next 2 days and I except to show up at work in the morning to see if they need people at work. I was told they were always in need of people in the morning, s0 I might do a couple of hours there, let say maybe from 9 to 12 or 13. Nothing much. I prefer to show up at work knowing exactly that I will get paid instead of keeping posting, answering email without knowing if someone would like a massage from me or not.

That's the hardest thing about being an independant massage girl. I saw some jobs in spa, but I don't know what to expect from such job.

I didn't get any news from the guy of Westmount, whih I find mean from him because at the beginning, even after our first session, he was sending me emails, I am replying to him and he respond back. But since the free session nothing. I have been quite busy and I didn't get the chance to write back. I didn't dislike him, it's just sometime I am wondering what I am doing and I keep laughing at myself and I sometime laugh alone...

It's hard to believe what I am able to do just for an extra 40$... I don't know where I get the idea from, doing massage at 40$ per hour, but it's the best thing that never happen to me.

I got a former client from the US that could come back in Montreal very soon and I really hope to see him again. If so, he might be one of the few massage I will do during January.

I am going to bed now, hope it will work out for me to get a few extra hours.

What about the taxes?

April is coming and I will soon need to things about doing my taxes, like everyone else. I am thinking about maybe showing off my massage income, even if I didn't provide receipt to any of my clients. And I really can't do so because I am not a massotherapist and clients cannot claim for insurance.

The most difficult part is not about declaring the money, put on how I will declare it. I was thinking something like "atelier de relaxation" or something like that. I can't say to the government, hey, I am doing massage, sometimes it's getting hot, but nothing sexual happen yet. lol.....

So I cannot declare myself a massotherapist, even massage girl. It's really make no sense. It could help if the government legalize prostitution and see sensual massage as a profession. Because I might not provide any sexual services, well, putting my hands on a man body is sensual.

Wow....

I have the best job of the world. :)

It's raining outside

I have been feeling kind of upset these days for a bunch of reason. One of them regarding my Internet connexion. I just return the whole package to Bell. Once there, the guy make me call their customer service. I have been billed near 70$ for a service I didn't use. A Bell technician, for the Internet, was supposed to come ovr, and he never did, and I lost my evening of work. I decided to return the service, to save time and money.

I was told I should be able to get the Internet without any problem. But the thing is that the person living in the apartment before me was maybe with Videotron for the Internet, that's why it didn't work out for me. Anyway, I only working with a wireless signal right now that I have from I don't know where.

I just return from Bell, I am all wet. The wheater is horrible outside, with a mix of snow and rain.

I was thinking about the free massage session that I provide and all other shit. lol I am too good for myself. The 2 last days where days I was off from work, but I wasn't able to do massage. I did post an ad in CL, but I was busy at doing other things. And today too, with that Internet thing. The good news is that I might have just a 25$ to pay, but I told the lady that if I will get charged that amount, I told her I will do a small creance, because the technician came one time, and I didn't know he was actually coming, and the other time, the technician never came, and never call to say he wan't coming. And I lost one evening of work because I was waiting for nothing. Not massage deal, regular work. Anyway, there was nothing she could do for that 25$, I will have to wait until next bill, to call again and argue with them...

It's just make no sense and at the end, when you think of it, not having the Internet is terrible because no Internet, no massage, right? Everything is fine now, I just have to wait for them to mail me a box to return their modem and than to wait for the next bill.

With all those things, I didn't have time to do any massage.

I am already getting enough of men

I don't know how other girls kind of like me do, but guys are getting on my nerves now, for a all bunch of reason. The problem is that it's seem like there's always the same group of guys who replies to my adds and I really hate it. And I also hate to replies to those emails. When I think of it, it's mean there'a a big bunch of mega pervert out there watching the Erotic section of CL.

I also hate it when I am being ask for my number. I don't have a cell or tel phone and it won't change because some idiots want to deal over the phone instead of emails. Last week was a great week for me. I made I believe something like 200$ in massages. Good money that disappear in an instant because of New Year Eve and Boxing Day, but still.

My wireless connection is loosing me from time to time and it's getting hard to read emails and to blog, I have to move my computer all over the place in order to keep the signal network. And another thing is I am getting tired doing massage in my free time is exhausting me. I might give myself a break before saying good bye forever to guy, sex and massage....

That's another nasty joke of mine. There's never been question of sex between me or anyone so far. I have too muh to say and I am getting tired. Maybe I am doing too much and should stop now my massage activities.

Me giving a free massage

A give a free massage to a young man today, almost my age. I give it for free because I went to give him a massage in the afternoon last week and he send me back an email the same day asking for another massage for the same day, in the evening. I was pretty happy of that.

After what he write me later on that he couldn't have me back for a week or 2. I then told him I could give him a free massage session since he had give me 80$ in one day. He was extra friendly and kind. To tell the true, he was too kind.

So I went today at his place, which is actually is father place, located in Westmount. After what I realize from where he was taking the money from... lol

Anyway, when I arrived, he ask me if I wanted water or coffee. I arrive at his place at 10 am, so when I hear "coffee", I said a yes. Instead of saying no to everything else he was offering me, like food. I had breakfast, so coffee was enough.

I had to talk a little, and I wasn't feeling at my place, in Westmount, in the kitchen of his what I believe could be a condo or maybe apartment. I don't know. His dad was at work, and we were alone. I drink 2 cups and then I give him his free session.

And after the massage, he gave me a kiss on the check, and I was quite surprised and told him he was too nice. And I was feeling shy and not at my place and I wanted to leave. I hate super friendly, super super nice people! I am not too use to that.

I was feeling incomfortable the whole time. The reason why, I don't know.

I left, and then he said that maybe he would like to see again for massage and if so, he will call me. Which after I remain him that I didn't have a phone or cell, and that he should email me instead. Maybe he took my shynest negatively.

It's the guy of rich daddy boy that is being nice with everyone and is doing too much. I don't like preppies.

I left, he wanted to give me a chocolate bar, which I refuse and say thank you. Voilà.

I went shopping after that, then I went to my other job that I have. No paying massage for today, but it doesn't really matter because I hate guys for now on. And I don't really know why.

On my work frustrations

I have just delete two comments that I have received from someone who read my blog, and than reply in a comment saying that I am materialist, and so on. I just couldn't believe that the comment was made to me. Me, being materialist? Maybe it's what come out when a complete stranger read my blog, but anyway, the comment amuze me, because it's kind completely the opposite. I live simpely. My only luxe is a laptop. I don't even have a television at my place.

I previously post in here that I was going to keep doing massage until I reach a 700$ and something for a tv and a couch... Well, I am so in need of money right now that I cannot afford to put money in any "extras". SO I kept the money to cover my everyday expenses. I do have a day job, I work there 42.5 hours per hour and even a bit more, and I can barely reach my savings and expenses plan.

If I do massages from time to time, if yes, of course, for the money, but I feel there's no obligation from my part why it should be different. If money was a motivation from the early beginning, money change the report of me in being a massage girl, because I won't do anything and everything for money, it's the reason why I prefer to keep going on relaxing massage and not provide any sexual services. It's not even a way to get attention from my part either, it's a way to get extra money and this way had work well for me so far.

It's true I am doing the whatever "massage girl" thing for money, but I will prefer to stay at home rather to go I don't no where to massage a I don't know who.... It's the most difficult part of it, and that's just when men ask me for more when I am right there in front of them... It's happen a couple of time, after a massage, that guys ask me for an hand job. It happen to me 3 times on the many many times I did massage... I consider myself lucky.

Like the opposite, when client get very nice with me, I don't like it either. I ask myself why? and don't understand how men are in their head. I don't understand men world.

Doing massages on my free time

I was off from my job yesterday and today, I was lucky to get 2 massages session, one of 2 hours, the other 1 hour. The one from yesterday was rude, for a reason or another ad it give me the impression that he was treating me like a prostitute or something, by the way he was with me. There some man like that who believe that because a woman is coming in, she's necessary a prostitute and will do whatever you want. He didn't ask more than a massage, pay fully for those 2 hours and thanks me after the massage. But gees, he was so mean. Anyway, so far, I only had a few bad experiences when coming to massage. And that guy from yesterday was one of them. But I will continue to do massage anyway, I am not that sensible.

I had that 120$ bill for my New Year Eve hotel that I had to pay all by myself, so I told myself let's go.... And yesterday, it was so cold. And the guy barely spoke to me, so he didn't specify for how long he wanted the massage. He seems to like it, so I continue, until 2 hours. After 2 hours, my arms begin to hurt a little. After one hour, I am still ok, but after 2... It begin to hurt. But I am getting good arms at doing this!!! Anyway, I got my money, I didn't speak since he didn't speak. I am like that. It's the kind of person that I forget easily and it's a shame that man treat woman the way he does. Maybe he was seeing in me a some kind of prostitute or something. I don't know. He was kind of severe. Hard to explain, but I understand myself.

I am now sort of out of New Year Eve debt. Finally.......

On my New Year Eve

My New Year Eve was very great. I was working until 21h30 on the 31, but a co-worker wanted to go out, so I went with her. The bad thing is I wasn't dress up for the occasion, but anyway, we pend some time walking around.

We went to the Old Montreal and went to the Place Jacques Cartier, there was a lot of people there and a band was outside playing, there was a kiosk for alcohol in a little tent. It was kind of fun. And after, because we start having cold, we went to a pub, and there, I keep drinking, drinking, drinking. I buy the first pitcher, after a pitcher, no problem when we are 2 drinking, I can handle it. After the second pitcher, I was still ok, but after the third................. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I wasn't the same. I went to the washroom, I might stay there for a while because my co-worker went to see if I was there........ I was sitting on the toilett, and I was AHHHHHHHH all over the floor. I throw up so much that my upper body was hurting me. After I was done and did beautiful mess in the washroom and I keep thinking it was my co-worker fault because she had buy the 2 other pitcher.... For me one or 2 pitchers were enough, but I keep on drinking, since the pitchers were there... I think I notice the second pitcher, but I never notice that there was a new third one there.... I realize it after. Anyway, it was kind of cool, seeing each other so drunk......... it was hilarious.

After I went out the toilet, I could barely walk, so I sit down on the floor lol!!! The party was over for me... Someone went to get my coat and help me to get down the stairs and after, we try to find a taxi, but that was barely possible, so we went to a hotel room, and told her I paying the room, doesn't bother me that much... In our way to the hotel, a guy with his buddies help me to walk and he caress me in a gentle way and then, he ask if we wanted to go to his place. My co-worker reply to him no, that we prefer an hotel room. When we find one, the guys continue there way... Which was a good thing after all.

And we woke up around 8 because I wake up in a hurry to go to the toilet once again and tell I told my co-worker to get up, she was awake to, and than we decide to take a shower at my place because, hummmmmmm, we were not smelling good... And we were starting at work at 11h30 that morning.... So we take the metro went to my place, and than we took a shower, put new clothes on, I bother her a shirt and than, miserable, we went to work....

I only went better that day after I took 2 advil, I gave my co-worker 2 advil too. And then we start getting better and were able to finish the day. It was a funny New Year...