I enjoy giving massage anyway

I previously wrote that I didn’t enjoy giving massage. But that’s not true anymore, since yesterday, Friday, August 3, 2007.

All for the money and nothing else

I discover tonight that I wasn’t actually giving massage because I was enjoying massage…. I actually only enjoy the money, and the money only.

I don’t enjoy touching complete stranger, chatting with them, making myself pretty for extra cash, that’s me and only me. I still thinking about the trouble client I have, and I begin to think that or I should be extra careful with him, or I should go public with him. He actually wrote several emails via his business email. And some emails are really provocative, like he wants me to get involve into prostitution instead or something.

Men like that should be push away. While it’s so hard for me, for a reason or another, to find myself a good job, it’s a lot easier to make money from massage, even non-sexual massage.

First trouble client

I knew at first when I got started that my life as a massage girl wouldn’t be easy. It’s not easy to have client, even with CraigsList, and the job isn’t easy, even it’s appear to be, at first, an easy job. It's not an easy life. There’s a lot to deal with. I first wonder if I should ask to be paid before I do the massage, to be sure I will get paid. Sometimes, people would like to receive massage at my place, but that’s not really safe, I believe. Those two examples are among other things. And the last one, but more important of all: is the client I will do the massage only looking for massage?

I have that client that I have been provided massage since a couple of weeks. He’s the first client I ever massage. I massage him in his beautiful house. Things were doing ok, until now. He gave be hundred and hundred of dollars so far. But even with the money, it’s getting harder and harder on me to see him and to give him massage.

The things is he start to touch me. He want happy ending, BJ, and everything, which I didn’t provide to him, even if he asks. And slowly begin to humiliated me, asking me if I have dolls at my house and if I wanted to play with the dolls he have in his living room. He’s divorce, have two little girls. I didn’t pay to much attention to that part of the conversation at first. But the week after, he repeat to me the same thing, and also ask me if I had similar toys at home. I then answer to him no, that I wasn’t playing with toys anymore. It’s stop from there. I once ask him why he was always asking me that, and then he told me he that he was only joking. I didn’t find it funny. When I massage someone, I expect some respect, the same respect that I provide to the client.

And also, just tonight, he told me he search for another massage girl. He told me he didn’t receive any response coming from her. He also complain about the fact that other massage girl are usually prostitutes. I didn’t ask him if he consider me as a prostitute, but he probably do. I really don’t care what he thing. I thing he tries to intimidate me.

I don’t know at what game he’s playing, but anyway, I left him with 120$ in my pocket. I got a good week because of him. I will let him continue play his game and the money will just continue to come by itself and make all his up to me.

I forgot something

Not a g-string, but… a clock! I forget my clock yesterday on the night table of a complete stranger. It’s the first time I ever forget something on a client place.

Since I cannot find my clock anywhere, I believe I must have leave it on the night table of the last “client” I did yesterday. I have that blue little clock that I carry everywhere in my purse, it’s serve as watch and as an alarm clock as well. Right now, it’s late and I am working tomorrow morning and I can’t find my alarm clock anywhere. It’s so hot in the apartment right now. I am going to be dead tomorrow. I usually put the clock near me when I massage because I like to watch the time and well, I don’t want to work for free, so I calculate the time. So I guess I will have to give a quick call tomorrow to the client and I hate that idea.

Non-sexual massage

I have been looking for a quick and easy way to gain money and since I don’t want to strip, be an escort or anything like that, I try to make something of my very on, which I call “non-sexual massage”. I cannot call it “therapeutic massage” because I am not a therapist. And I cannot call it “sexual massage” because I don’t offer a “sexual massage” and if I will call it a “sexual massage” or “sensual massage”, the gentlemen who read the ad could believe that I am offering “sensual” and “sexual” massages with extras and everything that come with it. And I don’t want to call it a “non-sensual massage” because the touch of the massage is sensual and I don’t want to break the fantasy that should come with the massage. I am still working on a correct appellation. “Non-sexual massage” appear to be a little bit rude, too direct.

My life in Montreal as a massage girl

I am starting this blog, right now, to occupy my free time, which for me is time that I spend between two clients or my time waiting in front of my computer screen waiting for emails of clients. I have been involved in the massage industry since last June 2007 and I am looking to make a living from it. Since June 2007, I have been offering non-sexual massage in the Montreal area. I have been massaging to clients place and in hotel rooms, essentially downtown. Along the way, I find it a great to have a blog where I could share my experiences with other.