It's raining outside

I have been feeling kind of upset these days for a bunch of reason. One of them regarding my Internet connexion. I just return the whole package to Bell. Once there, the guy make me call their customer service. I have been billed near 70$ for a service I didn't use. A Bell technician, for the Internet, was supposed to come ovr, and he never did, and I lost my evening of work. I decided to return the service, to save time and money.

I was told I should be able to get the Internet without any problem. But the thing is that the person living in the apartment before me was maybe with Videotron for the Internet, that's why it didn't work out for me. Anyway, I only working with a wireless signal right now that I have from I don't know where.

I just return from Bell, I am all wet. The wheater is horrible outside, with a mix of snow and rain.

I was thinking about the free massage session that I provide and all other shit. lol I am too good for myself. The 2 last days where days I was off from work, but I wasn't able to do massage. I did post an ad in CL, but I was busy at doing other things. And today too, with that Internet thing. The good news is that I might have just a 25$ to pay, but I told the lady that if I will get charged that amount, I told her I will do a small creance, because the technician came one time, and I didn't know he was actually coming, and the other time, the technician never came, and never call to say he wan't coming. And I lost one evening of work because I was waiting for nothing. Not massage deal, regular work. Anyway, there was nothing she could do for that 25$, I will have to wait until next bill, to call again and argue with them...

It's just make no sense and at the end, when you think of it, not having the Internet is terrible because no Internet, no massage, right? Everything is fine now, I just have to wait for them to mail me a box to return their modem and than to wait for the next bill.

With all those things, I didn't have time to do any massage.

I am already getting enough of men

I don't know how other girls kind of like me do, but guys are getting on my nerves now, for a all bunch of reason. The problem is that it's seem like there's always the same group of guys who replies to my adds and I really hate it. And I also hate to replies to those emails. When I think of it, it's mean there'a a big bunch of mega pervert out there watching the Erotic section of CL.

I also hate it when I am being ask for my number. I don't have a cell or tel phone and it won't change because some idiots want to deal over the phone instead of emails. Last week was a great week for me. I made I believe something like 200$ in massages. Good money that disappear in an instant because of New Year Eve and Boxing Day, but still.

My wireless connection is loosing me from time to time and it's getting hard to read emails and to blog, I have to move my computer all over the place in order to keep the signal network. And another thing is I am getting tired doing massage in my free time is exhausting me. I might give myself a break before saying good bye forever to guy, sex and massage....

That's another nasty joke of mine. There's never been question of sex between me or anyone so far. I have too muh to say and I am getting tired. Maybe I am doing too much and should stop now my massage activities.

Me giving a free massage

A give a free massage to a young man today, almost my age. I give it for free because I went to give him a massage in the afternoon last week and he send me back an email the same day asking for another massage for the same day, in the evening. I was pretty happy of that.

After what he write me later on that he couldn't have me back for a week or 2. I then told him I could give him a free massage session since he had give me 80$ in one day. He was extra friendly and kind. To tell the true, he was too kind.

So I went today at his place, which is actually is father place, located in Westmount. After what I realize from where he was taking the money from... lol

Anyway, when I arrived, he ask me if I wanted water or coffee. I arrive at his place at 10 am, so when I hear "coffee", I said a yes. Instead of saying no to everything else he was offering me, like food. I had breakfast, so coffee was enough.

I had to talk a little, and I wasn't feeling at my place, in Westmount, in the kitchen of his what I believe could be a condo or maybe apartment. I don't know. His dad was at work, and we were alone. I drink 2 cups and then I give him his free session.

And after the massage, he gave me a kiss on the check, and I was quite surprised and told him he was too nice. And I was feeling shy and not at my place and I wanted to leave. I hate super friendly, super super nice people! I am not too use to that.

I was feeling incomfortable the whole time. The reason why, I don't know.

I left, and then he said that maybe he would like to see again for massage and if so, he will call me. Which after I remain him that I didn't have a phone or cell, and that he should email me instead. Maybe he took my shynest negatively.

It's the guy of rich daddy boy that is being nice with everyone and is doing too much. I don't like preppies.

I left, he wanted to give me a chocolate bar, which I refuse and say thank you. Voilà.

I went shopping after that, then I went to my other job that I have. No paying massage for today, but it doesn't really matter because I hate guys for now on. And I don't really know why.

On my work frustrations

I have just delete two comments that I have received from someone who read my blog, and than reply in a comment saying that I am materialist, and so on. I just couldn't believe that the comment was made to me. Me, being materialist? Maybe it's what come out when a complete stranger read my blog, but anyway, the comment amuze me, because it's kind completely the opposite. I live simpely. My only luxe is a laptop. I don't even have a television at my place.

I previously post in here that I was going to keep doing massage until I reach a 700$ and something for a tv and a couch... Well, I am so in need of money right now that I cannot afford to put money in any "extras". SO I kept the money to cover my everyday expenses. I do have a day job, I work there 42.5 hours per hour and even a bit more, and I can barely reach my savings and expenses plan.

If I do massages from time to time, if yes, of course, for the money, but I feel there's no obligation from my part why it should be different. If money was a motivation from the early beginning, money change the report of me in being a massage girl, because I won't do anything and everything for money, it's the reason why I prefer to keep going on relaxing massage and not provide any sexual services. It's not even a way to get attention from my part either, it's a way to get extra money and this way had work well for me so far.

It's true I am doing the whatever "massage girl" thing for money, but I will prefer to stay at home rather to go I don't no where to massage a I don't know who.... It's the most difficult part of it, and that's just when men ask me for more when I am right there in front of them... It's happen a couple of time, after a massage, that guys ask me for an hand job. It happen to me 3 times on the many many times I did massage... I consider myself lucky.

Like the opposite, when client get very nice with me, I don't like it either. I ask myself why? and don't understand how men are in their head. I don't understand men world.

Doing massages on my free time

I was off from my job yesterday and today, I was lucky to get 2 massages session, one of 2 hours, the other 1 hour. The one from yesterday was rude, for a reason or another ad it give me the impression that he was treating me like a prostitute or something, by the way he was with me. There some man like that who believe that because a woman is coming in, she's necessary a prostitute and will do whatever you want. He didn't ask more than a massage, pay fully for those 2 hours and thanks me after the massage. But gees, he was so mean. Anyway, so far, I only had a few bad experiences when coming to massage. And that guy from yesterday was one of them. But I will continue to do massage anyway, I am not that sensible.

I had that 120$ bill for my New Year Eve hotel that I had to pay all by myself, so I told myself let's go.... And yesterday, it was so cold. And the guy barely spoke to me, so he didn't specify for how long he wanted the massage. He seems to like it, so I continue, until 2 hours. After 2 hours, my arms begin to hurt a little. After one hour, I am still ok, but after 2... It begin to hurt. But I am getting good arms at doing this!!! Anyway, I got my money, I didn't speak since he didn't speak. I am like that. It's the kind of person that I forget easily and it's a shame that man treat woman the way he does. Maybe he was seeing in me a some kind of prostitute or something. I don't know. He was kind of severe. Hard to explain, but I understand myself.

I am now sort of out of New Year Eve debt. Finally.......

On my New Year Eve

My New Year Eve was very great. I was working until 21h30 on the 31, but a co-worker wanted to go out, so I went with her. The bad thing is I wasn't dress up for the occasion, but anyway, we pend some time walking around.

We went to the Old Montreal and went to the Place Jacques Cartier, there was a lot of people there and a band was outside playing, there was a kiosk for alcohol in a little tent. It was kind of fun. And after, because we start having cold, we went to a pub, and there, I keep drinking, drinking, drinking. I buy the first pitcher, after a pitcher, no problem when we are 2 drinking, I can handle it. After the second pitcher, I was still ok, but after the third................. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I wasn't the same. I went to the washroom, I might stay there for a while because my co-worker went to see if I was there........ I was sitting on the toilett, and I was AHHHHHHHH all over the floor. I throw up so much that my upper body was hurting me. After I was done and did beautiful mess in the washroom and I keep thinking it was my co-worker fault because she had buy the 2 other pitcher.... For me one or 2 pitchers were enough, but I keep on drinking, since the pitchers were there... I think I notice the second pitcher, but I never notice that there was a new third one there.... I realize it after. Anyway, it was kind of cool, seeing each other so drunk......... it was hilarious.

After I went out the toilet, I could barely walk, so I sit down on the floor lol!!! The party was over for me... Someone went to get my coat and help me to get down the stairs and after, we try to find a taxi, but that was barely possible, so we went to a hotel room, and told her I paying the room, doesn't bother me that much... In our way to the hotel, a guy with his buddies help me to walk and he caress me in a gentle way and then, he ask if we wanted to go to his place. My co-worker reply to him no, that we prefer an hotel room. When we find one, the guys continue there way... Which was a good thing after all.

And we woke up around 8 because I wake up in a hurry to go to the toilet once again and tell I told my co-worker to get up, she was awake to, and than we decide to take a shower at my place because, hummmmmmm, we were not smelling good... And we were starting at work at 11h30 that morning.... So we take the metro went to my place, and than we took a shower, put new clothes on, I bother her a shirt and than, miserable, we went to work....

I only went better that day after I took 2 advil, I gave my co-worker 2 advil too. And then we start getting better and were able to finish the day. It was a funny New Year...

My New Year Resolution

More and more massages......... lol

I did one yesterday evening, it was a surprised one. The guy like the smell of he oil. I massage the sweetest little guy in town. I say little because he's shorter than me. Anyway, if every single clients where like him, I will contine giving massage like that forever.

He asks me if I would like to get certified like for a real massotherapist and if I like to give massage. Well, I answer yes to those 2 questions. And it's true, it might be a good idea to get certified and I like giving massage because if it wouldn't be the case, I wouldn't but that much time and effort on what I try to do.

I work until 21h30 this evening, and after that, I don't know what I will do. But to tell the true I am a little bit tired. It's kind of hard sometimes to keep posting, keep answering to all those emails. But the good news is that for the majority of the time, I got a least one client for one post, generally.

Let's hope that in 2008, I will still be able to find men who just want a non-sexual, relaxing massage, and that I will continue to be able to ask them all 40$ per hour....